gsp Thoughts From A Diva: 8/13/06 - 8/20/06

Thoughts From A Diva

Random images and thoughts from a misplaced Minnesota Diva trying to survive in Wisconsin.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Jericho Mile

We spent the afternoon watching Peter Strauss run his ass off.

I had forgotten how much I loved this movie! And of course, Peter Strauss is absolutely gorgeous in this movie!!!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

WE Fest Photo

Penny and Sara at We-Fest!!

They made it onto the We-Fest picture gallery!!!

Goal For The Day

My Goal For The Day is to read every blog on my Blogroll.

We'll see if I am left in peace long enough to do that.

Update: Whew! I made it all the way through...left a few comments, but not many.

Number Game

Found this over at Eric's place....Pretty right on.

There are 13 letters in your name.
Those 13 letters total to 55
There are 4 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11

An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

I'm having a hard time sleeping tonight so I thought I would jot down some of the thoughts running through my head.

  • I miss Pat so much my chest actually hurts.
  • I called him today thinking maybe we could sit down and talk. (Actually, all I really wanted was a hug). But he started yelling about how I had lied to him and he wanted to know the truth about why we split up. I said I told him the truth. He said I didn't. That it was my mom and that made me break up with him. Mind you, I am 39 years old...I didn't even do what my parents told me to do when I was 10! So that made me remember all the mean things he used to say. Now I remember why I told him to take a hike.
  • But I miss him. I miss his love and his hugs and the way he made me feel safe in his arms.
  • I also realized today that by kicking him to the curb I was signing my own solitary confinement order. I know that I will be alone now. If not forever, then at least for a very long time. I have way too much baggage and am way too old, fat and ugly to find another man.
  • How old were you when you first fell in love? I thought I was in love at age 19 with my oldest son's father. I look back now and realize that I have had two true loves in my life and that was not one of them. The first was Meg's dad Bob. The second was/is Pat. I still love them both, but one is taken and the other is an alcoholic.
  • There. I said it. Pat is an alcoholic. He chose the alcohol over me. Do you know how badly that hurts? I didn't actually force him to choose one or the other, but when it came time to pay bills or buy food, his alcohol came first. That's the same thing isn't it?
  • School starts Sept 5 for both Meg and I. I told Target I was only going to be able to work weekends. They said I had to work during the week or I could not work I am putting in my notice tomorrow. My classes start at 8:40 in the morning and some days I am not done until 5:20. No way can I get up at 3 in the morning, bust my ass until 8 and make it to class in a pleasant mood to learn anything!
  • I have to find a new job
  • Lucas needs to find a job
  • I want a hug.
  • I need to go to sleep, but all I seem able to do at this point is cry. Light a candle for me, people. It's gonna be a long night.